oh hello, day one...you're here again? well....let's DO IT. that's right, it's a tuesday. sunday was fine. monday was not. so here we are today, putting up another fight. the morning so far has been fine. applesauce, peanut butter toast, tea, whatnot. dan is off work so that should help. no privacy to hunker down with a donut. but crazier things have happened, right? each day counts. not giving up.
on another note, my papa is moving back to new york in the next couple of months. whatever makes him happy, makes me happy. i have bittersweet feelings about it only because i had been thinking about *the slightest possibility* of *maybe* moving back home *at some point* in the future. it is easier to think about when both mom and dad are there. it is easy to feel guilty about NOT being there when both mom and dad are there. with mom in ohio and dad in new york, i feel maryland is a nice compromise for myself and that they can both understand my being here. less guilt. makes seeing them each more difficult, especially on holidays, but less guilt for me. really i should just get pregnant and then they might both move to maryland. good plan.
so many things i want to do. i need to do them.
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